Here I am. Wednesday afternoon, sitting. Waiting. Watching the clock on my computer switch from 1:45 to 1:46. Just waiting.
I seem to find myself waiting a lot these days- waiting for anything but this. Just three months out of college and I have already found myself turning into "that" person. You know, the one who slowly loses sight of her own identity and is only defined by the monotonous and mundane tasks that seem to dominate her every move from the hours of 8-5pm, Monday through Friday, week after week, month after month.
"There has to be more," I tell myself as I file through the papers on my desk. "Just a few more months and this will be all worth it."
A few more months from now and I'll be packing my bags for Paris, preparing myself for an unknown journey that will undoubtedly change the course of my life. I find myself thinking about Paris almost every second of the day. It's become an emotional rollercoster as of late. One minute I'm excited, the next minute I'm terrified.
"This is going to be the greatest experience ever!"
"Oh my gosh, what if the children hate me and make every minute a living hell".
"I'm going to be welcomed into their family with open arms! I wonder where we're going on the family's vacation?!?!?"
"What if they think of me as their personal maid??? I don't know how to iron table linens!!!!"
The list goes on and on...
So as these thoughts continue to attack my brain, I try to push them aside and get back to work.
So for right now, I guess I'll just continue waiting....
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It sounds like you are really bored during work. Of course, i thought __________(fill in the blank) would keep you busy and everything. Well, i know you are anxious but think about Spain. Didn't you worry if the lady would like you and accept you. She did, didn't she, with open arms. Besides, i bet this family has done this before so i bet they won't treat you like their personal maid, although that would be funny to see you running around like Cinderella or someone like that.
Did you know you can make like 600 bucks a month off blogs, and all you have to do is right stuff that people will read, other than you family. So Dani i say to you, stop working and look for people to advertise on your blog. HA HA HA! I'm just kiding but i read your blog every day and i miss you tons big sis. I really do hope you get to go to Paris, that means i'll hear less of your complaining. HA HA HA just joking. I love you tons dan and i really do hope you get to go and everything go wonderful.
Love you tons
Mickey Tinkey
PS If you think you are going into a repetitive task try taking a different route to or from work to spice things up or just do something out of the ordinary that is completely off the walls that you probably wouldn't do. I don't know maybe a sport. Well i hope you fix your repetitive task thing.
PPS I really do type probably way too much
PPSS O well, i am probably only one that reads your blog whenever i get on the comp.
PPPSS O yea Nick and mine's IPods should come manana(w/ tilda mark) or day after and i am so excited. I have tons of songs i got from my freind's CDS: System of a Down, Disturbed, Rage Againsts the Machince, and so on and so forth (they are metal/rock bands)
PPPSSS Ok i really do type WAY TOO MUCH. O well love you tons mikey tinkey
Of course i forgot to tell you that this monotonous and mundane tasks are about entering the real world and growing up. HA HA HA well love ya by
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